Managing My Existence

Each of us is appointed by God as manager and steward of our own life and of the environment we live in. Even if we opt to be more of a follower than a leader, we are still responsible for ourself, our future.

Human life is like a business establishment that you have to protect and nurture. Every transaction that you make has a corresponding value and outcome in your growth as an individual. If you are negligent, lazy and careless then you are bound to fail. If you persevere and work hard, you may likely succeed.

In the first month of my self-probation program, I realized that everything has its own worth. If you value your career, your soul, your body and your relationships, then you cannot afford to take things for granted or entrust your success in the hands of another, much more a stranger.

In my 32 years of human existence, I grew up pampered with nanny and housekeeper to clean up my mess, cook and obey my insignificant commands. I was never really compelled to work or learn some of the household chores. My family is not well endowed but my father ensured to provide us with all our needs and make our life comfortable. Without proper training and experience, i grew up ignorant of my own responsibilities. I didnt know how to fold a blanket so when i took up nursing, it was a nightmare for me to wake up early on my own, keep things neat and cope up with the requirements. In other words, i failed. Well,i failed partly because i joined a fraternity which took a lot of my time and attention. Most importantly, I failed because of lack of motivation.

Even at my age, i often find myself depleted with inner drive and inspiration. I cannot decipher the logic of work especially when i am alone. Sometimes motivation becomes so rare that it feels like an oasis in a desert once i feel it in my veins.

With nowhere to go and no one to help me, I prayed. I realized it is in my prayers that i encountered the virtues and the motivation that i longed for. That there is only one source of all goodness and that is God. He is the richest and most powerful in every existent universe. All you need can be obtained from His grace. Only when you receive His grace. "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all these things will be given to you." It's as simple as that. There's no room in heaven for idlers and lazy bums. Besides, it is for your own welfare. Why settle for silver when you can have gold?