Earth Blues

When you feel that you are walking through life alone, know that there are people who are watching you from afar.  Life is lonely sometimes but it is because this is just a temporary dwelling and our soul yearns to be somewhere with someone in a place where happiness has no end. 

Doing God's work is not easy. Lord please send someone along.  I cannot do this all alone. 

Time

 Time has always been my enemy.  When I was a child I had tantrums in the morning because I didn't want to get up early for school.  This went on till high school, then to college.  I remembered how lazy i was to wake up early.  I was always late for school.  I couldn't count the number of times I fell in line with the latecomers and had a separate Flag Ceremony. In college, my dormitory was just upstairs of one of the buildings of the College of Nursing.  My classmates and dorm mates would yell from below to tell me to hurry and I would scram to the bathroom to wash my face.  It seemed that in every day of my life my father had to drag me to face the world and meet my responsibilities.  Time took my father away from me so soon.  I hated time.  Not until this time. 

Today, I returned to God and prayed.  In the shower, it was like God was talking to me as I was talking to myself and it brought me to my senses.  I do not own my time.  My life, my time, my freedom is not mine.  They belong to God.  The time i wasted and the time i spent well are not mine.  Every appointment that I was late, I cheated not on my time but God's time.  I do not own my life and one day, God will take everything away.  One day, I will no longer see life. I will no longer have free time to be idle, to play, to sleep and think of nothing but myself.  When that time comes, God will ask me to give back to Him the time He gave me in this life.  He will take account of every moment that I lived in this life.  

"There's a time for everything and everything has its own time." It was like a bolt of lightning struck me. So i hurried in my shower.  From then on, I realized the value of timeliness, the value of getting things done on time at its own time.  Time for work must be a time for work, not for games or for personal matters.  I wasted 32 years pampering myself, getting all my whims in doing this and that regardless of the consequences.  No wonder I've grown fat, unsuccessful and poor. 
 

I want to change all these.  Now is the TIME.

The Feast

When I was in Manila after the workshop in Tagaytay, my brother brought me to the Feast led by Bo Sanchez.  He was very popular to me but i have never read any of his articles.  It was Sunday and a Mass was celebrated at PICC after which, the Feast began.  Every moment was touching.  I was so enthralled at how good Brother Bo was as a speaker and realized that prophets really do exist.  There was a band too and it was the third session of the theme Wish: Wishing God's Wishes.  I couldnt believe God brought me there.  It was amazing.  I cried while singing the song Who You Are.  Even before i wished, God has already granted one of my wishes, to hear His message for me, to know what He wanted for me to do with my life.  I wish God would give me a lot of opportunities to go to Manila so i could  attend the Feast again and again.

I feel like i am done with introspection.  What I need now is action.