My Only Treasure

 

  I just love this song.  I found it from youtube.

Piggy Banking

I must admit I am facing a financial crisis.  Loans are surging, pockets shrinking but my body is still the same.  I am single at 32  or shall i say penuriously single.

It started when our internet business subsided and bills were the same.  I had to loan from the cooperative to help my father pay either the car mortgage, land tax, car insurance or for family projects and my laptop.  I never regretted it because it helped us a lot.

Having a loan however is like Pringles.  "Once you pop, you cant stop." So im getting less from my salary because the proceeds goes to the cooperative, my partner in life hehe.  Well,  I must do something or I will end up a spinster.  Because who wants to marry a penniless woman?

I called my aunt today to ask for advice regarding my project.  She hesitated and asked, "Are you finally getting married? Why do you want to raise pigs?"  I wonder if I sounded desperate on the phone.  Our house helper, Gen-Gen became irritated because every time I called her name I would tell her over and over about the details of my hog dispersal project or how she would like to participate.  So she would say, "pigs again?" Hehe I never stopped talking about the pigs.   I told my staff at work about what our helper said and I started to blab about the hog dispersal project and she just commented, "Ma'am no wonder your helper complained."

I miss my father.  Whenever he had something in mind, especially a project,  he never stopped talking about it and we planned thoroughly. 

I hope God will bless this endeavor.  This is one of my wishes in Wishing God's Wishes.  Not only will I earn money, my partners will earn too and it will help them alleviate their financial situation.  I will just buy the piglets and have 4 or five people raise them.  The conditions will be that my partners will feed the pigs and we will divide the profit after three months that it is sold in the market.  Its really not a bonanza.  It will not generate a whole lot of money but at least I earn an extra income other than my salary. 

I hope this is not the beginning of an end or the end of the beginning.  I am banking on my piglets.

Oink!

Hopeful

A few days ago, I was in cloud 9 dreaming about the man I want to spend my whole life with.  I was about  to hold his hand when I woke up and his hand vanished.  Not long after I published my post,  I also felt  like I just fell 9 steps from the top of the stairs when what I was hoping for turned out to be a mere wishful thinking. 

Maybe I am just a dreamer.  I keep my hopes up and believe that something good can still happen.  Not because I am good or I possess something extraordinary in me but because I hope for God's grace.  Nothing more, nothing less.  Yet,  God's grace can take the form of something we do not expect to see or happen.  Sometimes it takes in the form of a failure or a heartache that simply opens our eyes of what we ought to achieve first before we acquire what we dearly wish for.  

Today,  I started to read the Bible again and heard the Sunday Mass.  I realized I only regarded God mostly as my Friend  rather than as God and Savior.  Yes He was always my Savior and my God but I always talked to Him as a friend.   I remembered just how good God has been to me and I remembered and felt how I dearly love Him as my God.  With my personality,  I wouldn't live long without His grace.  But His word on the Bible gave me hope each time I read. 

I did not become a nun or a missionary.  I don't also know how to be a faithful servant but I know my life has only one purpose - to love God and share God's love to His people.  I heard His message for me today: that I should never be lazy to do good works.  I should never be lazy to pray and praise the Lord.  So it shall be done.  My father used to think I was a hopeless case but as Trina Paulus said,  "There's Hope for the Flowers."