Singing in the Rain

The greatest joy in my life so far is learning how to sing!!! yess i can sing! thank you Lord.  Life is so lonely without music.  I can sing but i think only when its a full moon or the angels sympathize my desperate longing to sing well. hehehe at least i can sing, even only under the rain.

I love My Job

Im going back to Tagaytay!!!!

What I Did Lately

1.    I went to chat again and ate and danced.  I revived my love for dancing and i took ballroom dancing lessons with Siony. 

2.    Watched all the episodes of Trudis Liit online and suddenly wanted a child of my own. 

3.    Submitted reports and straightened my casefiles for the coming audit

4.    Cooked fried pork but it tasted bland though i seasoned it with a lot of soy sauce, vinegar, lemon, salt and sugar.

5.    Seasoned fried rice and pochero.  Hmm i really know how to cook now.

6.    Gen-gen our helper went home for 4days and only mama and i were alone with all the house chores. 

7.    Rummaged our store with sweets, chocolates and junk foods.  Hehe well yeah-guilty.

8.    Organized tree planting activity for clients

9.    Oh the memorable days were when we went to clients' houses for supervision and monitoring and of course to let them sign the new treatment plan

10.   Had a pedicure and still had my toe swollen. 

11.   Enjoyed the saucy pancit canton :)

12.   Played games and played games on my phone.

13.   Tried to jog in place and it felt good to sweat out.

14.   Added reallly good music on my phone.  God thank your for music and for our senses.

15.   Believe it or not, i prayed the rosary but failed to hear mass on Sept. 8. 

16.   Made a monthly budget.  Took care of finances.

17.   Gradually putting good pieces into my life's puzzle.

U-Turn

Its been awhile since i posted an entry.  Indeed, something mysterious happened.  I was infected with a virus, virus that broke my growing relationship with God.  Social pressures appalled me to thrive for earthly pleasures and i wasted two weeks of my life time to something that was not even worth living for.  Through prayers, God hauled me with his love. I would never want to separate myself from Him again.  No more games this time. Nothing could be more precious than time spent on prayers and good works. 

Life is fleeting.  From now on, I will no longer disregard myself.  It is imperative that i should take care of myself in the same way i am helping and taking care of others.  I am now determined in losing weight and in gaining the very thing that i deprived myself the most- confidence. 

Afraid to Work

When you do something, do it as if no one is watching.  God is watching.  He can hear the beating of your heart. 

Working is lonely.  When you lose yourself in your work and you have no one special to go home to and cuddle with or share the itsy bits and pieces of your day, you end up feeling lonely.  I think this is what i am running away from.  I am afraid of being lonely, afraid of crying.  My nose is not fit enough for crying anymore. I get motivated when i am working in a group but on my own i always end up in a slumber.  Is this such an incurable disease?

What am I so afraid of?  Let me remember my favorite Psalm. 

Psalm 27

The Lord is my light and my salvation, who shall i fear?

The Lord is my life's refuge, of whom shall i be afraid?

When evildoers come to me to devour my flesh, they themselves will stumble and fall.

Though an army encamp against me, my heart does not fear; Though war be waged against me, even then do I trust.

One thing I ask of the LORD; this I seek: To dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, To gaze on the beauty of the Lord, to visit his temple.

For God will hide me in his shelter in time of trouble, He will conceal me in the cover of his tent; and set me high upon a rock.

Even now my head is held high above my enemies on every side! I will offer in his tent sacrifices with shouts of joy; I will sing and chant praise to the LORD.

Hear my voice, LORD, when I call; have mercy on me and answer me.

Come," says my heart, "seek God's face"; your face, LORD, do I seek!

Do not hide your face from me; do not repel your servant in anger. You are my help; do not cast me off; do not forsake me, God my savior!

Though my father and mother forsake me, yet will the LORD receive me.

LORD, show me your way; lead me on a level path because of my enemies.

Do not abandon me to the will of my foes; malicious and lying witnesses have risen against me.

I believe I shall enjoy the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.

Wait for the LORD, take courage; be stouthearted, wait for the LORD!

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So work as if you are working for the Lord.

Work like you are singing Him praises

Your effort though it is unseen

Will be greatly rewarded both in heaven and on earth.

Today, Tita Nina sent me a message: " A person that has a happy spirit doesn't easily get tired and is always disposed to do good.  We've been created for a greater purpose so we should never allow ourselves to fall into things that remove the kindness from our hearts.  Keep a happy spirit!"